I really feel disappointed, totally disappointed. Why is it that people around me always try to make me so upset, why can't they just leave me alone. Let me do things my way.
What is it with these people don't they have any respect for me at all? What am I to them? Merely a puppet or a statue that can be put away when ever they feel distracted. What is worse they are my own family....
I want to discipline my children when they do wrong things and be punish justly. To any one of them,equally. But it seems that my way is to much for my family to accept ...why is that. Its not like I canned them or make them do hard work. It just I don't let them go for a trip that they supposed to take, but no it was harsh of me to take that away from them.
I am so disappointed but the truth is I feel so lonely and sad so sad that no one really want to understand me. I have let people to around me do every sort of thing to me that make me hurts, my heart hurt so bad. No one, no one really knows what I feel only Allah knows.
How sad is my life.....others have gone through much worse but....I just can't bear it anymore. If only we can choose our own family member....if only
Because blood is thicker than water, family will always be family nothing can change that but when sibling is treated unequally, that hurt one person and still it's okay when the truth is the heart is breaking bit by bit until it can't be contained anymore it will burst.
It has burst and it will bring great effect to people surrounding....will I regret what will happen...I don't know but I can't take it anymore. It feels like blood is my tears .
